Too Many Groups/Spring Break

I'm not sure when you'll see this, but again, this is my favorite place to vent. I'm in probably the most confusing mood of my life, I'm so happy that I want to cry just because it's so nice out and at the same time, I feel the crushing weight of responsibility taking a giant toll on my shoulders and I've been so thankful for stac opening doors for me that I was too afraid to open myself, I've been drawing now, and most (pretty much all) my stuffs on my facebook. I'm starting to feel the responsibility being handed over to me for next year in STAC from LeeLee, Mike, and Jake and I'm glad and more than happy to accept it, but it's just I'm in a conflicting state with my friends, which I expected to happen, but neglected to figure out how I'd handle the situation. My friends make fun of me because I talk to Patrick, they say that I worship him, etc. all because he plays bass and so do I. But I'm at the point where things are too good in my life for me to really care about anything, right now, it's 7:18 and instead of everyone else who are probably out, I'm inside, and I'm enjoying myself. I've also been listening to a lot of music, nothing that different really, but really analyzing what I listen to, and I have a deeper appreciation for what I'm hearing. I downloaded a Mott the Hoople song, All the Young Dudes, and I love it, I only have that song, and it's a shame, I'm talking to my uncle who has them on vinyl, but other than that, hope all is well, take care!

Movie

My movie is coming together and I'm very happy. I went in this project more optimistic than I do on most things and so far it's coming together quite nicely. I am, however, a little upset though about the film because my group and I were going to make like an Indie film, much different from the usual humor in most things I do. I was all pumped to do a serious role, which I'll be doing in one of Cassie's movies (if we film it at all) and I look foward to that.

I keep thinking about the summer and how much I'm going to miss everyone and it's upsetting me. And instead of not looking foward to next year, I'm glad that I'll be a senior in stac because I feel like I can really help the new STACies get used to this caring/loving/tense/beautiful/family that is STAC. I also decided that you and I will (if you have time) get lunch over the summer a couple of times and keep eachother up to date with stuff. Onwards and upwards!